I don't know anything about love. I think it's really crucial since I never have real relationship before. Maybe because I don't want into broken heart and crying after all, I think it makes me sick and making really hard consequences. I don't think I can love anyone else as much as i love you, but life must go on, and I'm sure we will find the right person at the right places, so there will be no anyone like us, I always focus on my work just because I don't want to remember you anymore, but as long as I forget you, you really make this hard because you ever want to meet me again, everytime. I just keep in silent and feeling that I'm not really good person, so again, I'm like a stupid girls come to you. Then we don't ever talk anymore, we never go outside because I think you don't want to see me again or because you don't like me anymore. But you tell me, that love of your life is always me, no one else, but you just don't believe we could make it together, since there are many problems that happen to our live.
You afraid, and me too, because we're not same old kids, or butterfly era in nineteenth, we are adult. We need to think about future. Are we together ? Are we married? Are we having kids? or we just kind of having fun everytime we go? Nah, I don't think so.
That's what i mean about falling in love. You can't force yourself to stopping your heart to love him, you just have to accepted the fact that you're falling in love with him even you can't have him for the rest of your life. You just grow up and making these memories and threw it away, burn it, or keep it.
I just adore you because how much u fighting for me, and made me believe I'm the only one, queen of your heart, but then I realize you meet another person, and I met people. We must socialize to survive, we can't just stand right there, and waiting until one of us asking to hangout.
You know, it's really hard when everytime in your life you always send your good'bad news to him, and doing first experience with him, and now without him, you feeling empty. How about that? Do you like it?
You just deny the fact that you still have 'the glimpse of us' vibe, you get de javu everytime you see someone similar with him, maybe you should believe you have winning the lottery just to make he come back to you. Then if he come to you, are you ready?
Please don't be such a fool-cruel woman, you must have principe and tell him to never contact you again, tell the world that you're not his, and he's not yours. You must stop to depend one another. Just thinking that you'll never good enough for him, and he doesn't deserve you.
